What is Lost is Gained.

Is what I’ve been lately. Between work, socialising, going to Bristol etc, I’ve had no time to update and I apologise!

I’m at a steady 233 still, keeping the carbs low(although I did eat out last night and had a dessert(eton mess with ice cream) and on came 2lbs of water weight but 1% loss of fat?) and I think I’m going to turn into a chicken salad if I eat it once more. But it’s so good…

I had a two day job this week with a woman who lost 6st/84lbs through following Paleo/caveman. I can’t tell you how good it felt to be able to talk to someone who got it, you know. Someone who wouldn’t be like, ‘yeah, but bacon is bad for you, and eggs are full of cholesterol, chicken skin is really fattening’. She understood. So we spoke about diets and weight loss on our lunch breaks and it was good. 

Gym has been more weight lifting orientated and I love that, I can feel some more definition coming through my arms! I’m going for a walk instead today as I’m not feeling too well today(through bending over all day yesterday painting little kids faces and just general headache-y). Hope everyone is well! Will try to keep you all updated as much as poss. <3

I’m not lying to you! 

Lindt 90%, 14g of carb for the whole bar. But it’s something to get used to, usually I’d power through an 85% bar, but this one is harder! So it lasts.

And I looked at them and all I could think was…”I look normal.” For the first time in forever, I didn’t feel like I stuck out, or that I looked absolutely terrible or felt bad about myself. I just…looked…normal. Although my weight has stayed the same for a while, my body must be changing and I could see that in those pictures. Finally! Feels good man.

Mid morning realness. Excuse my state, I am cooking my breakfast!

Hope you have all had an awesome weekend!

I’ve been super busy with work! Every day, hectic. Keeping up with the gym though, my diet has been on for the past week apart from a day or two where I socialised with friends but other than that I’ve just been busy burrowing down.

Hope you’re all well!

Add my on MFP: AnonDuck :)

foggyzombie:

esculentesset:

I’ve been trying to figure out why I have so much trouble loving my body and finding myself as sexy as I find other women, and for the longest time I thought it was because of my size. But that doesn’t make sense- I love my tummy and my thighs and my butt and all of that, and I find women attractive with way more mass than I have, so what the eff is it? And last night, in ballet, standing behind a girl who looks to be roughly the exact same size as me, I figured it out: 

it’s actually my shoulders! 

I’m built like a rectangle. I have broad shoulders and no real “curves” to speak of when being looked at head-on. I just don’t have a feminine shape, I suppose. 

So, now that I’ve figured that out, I’m sure there’s other ladies out there with rectangle bodies who have found a way to love love love themselves: Tell me your secrets!

I’m browsing the body positivity tag and saw this. Okay, broad shoulders are AWESOME, they can make you look more hourglass if you carry fat/muscle in your thighs/butt/hips/stomach, they look great in clothes (think the things some ladies wear in those fashiony business suits to puff out their shoulders and give that angular look), they can look either dainty or tough, they sometimes make your boobs look bigger (or maybe that’s just my pigeon chest), if you/your arms aren’t “fit” you’ll still look so because muscular people typically have broader shoulders, you can get that cool look where you drape some of your hair in front and some tendrils curl over and behind your shoulders…broad shoulders are awesome, how could you be insecure about such a cool thing?

This is me! But because my legs are so small and I carry all my weight in the middle, it makes me look really dis-proportioned. And I have C cup boobs but the cups aren’t wide enough, so I have to get DDs(…). Other than that, broad shoulders don’t bother me anymore. 

(Source: coffeeandfisting)

Aaaaaand, now I’m dead.

90KG leg press, 65KG ab/adductor, 40KG lats, 10 and 12KG on free weights as of today…

And I was pulling out brambles and trees/weeding this morning. So I’m ready for death. 

Due to webcam problems, it’s a blog version this week!

My week has been fairly the same as last, I’ve not been able to go to the gym because I didn’t want to risk a scene from The Shining happening in the gym(it happened like, 4 times throughout the week TMI) and it was pretty painful so I gave it a rest.

But I’m back in before work tomorrow! I can’t wait(even if it will be like 7am).

My diet has been pretty much the same as last week as well, on and off, but now I’m in work pretty much all week it will be less tempting to snack and also being in the gym will be less tempting to snack.

I really need to up my water because I find myself getting a really dry mouth and not drinking enough that I need to.

Other than that, all I can say is I can’t wait to get back in the gym!

Hope you’re all well. :)