Be your body’s friend and supporter, not its enemy.
"When you get up in the morning, remember how precious is the privilege to live, to breathe, to be happy."
Today’s Intake:
- Two slices of toast with poached eggs and a tomato.
- Cheese and Quorn toasty with a mini milk ice cream.
- Wedges.
- A few more mini milks- amount unknown, but I’ve nearly finished my 10 pack(hey, at 42 cals each, if we’re counting, they’re damn tasty!).
Activity: None today. I’m trying to get myself out of my rut and obsessive behaviour building up again, as well as having hardly any sleep these past few days(we adopted a little abandoned newborn kitten the other day so I’ve been up throughout the night to feed it!). But I will do some tomorrow to keep myself in the cycle. I’ve been in work today as well as physio so I haven’t had time to eat between breaks, but I’ve actually felt hungry today! So that’s good. I haven’t felt hungry for a while, just eating for the sake and to keep some energy. Hope everyone is well, take care all. <3
I wanted some ice cream to sit outside and enjoy this weather with.
But I negotiated and settled for Mini Milks instead. Still delicious, still cold and I can eat them without thinking, ‘oh crap!’.
WI/intake:
Back to 233lbs.
-3lbs down I think? Probably due to not eating near enough, which is not good. At all.
Today’s intake:
- Toast.
- Slice of cheese on bread with relish, crisps.
- Takeaway.
- Four finger Kitkat.
No activity.
Work called me in early, so I woke up at 11, had ‘breakfast’ at half 1 and was in work at 2. Had 30 minutes for lunch and had to run home, so an on the go nothingness ‘lunch’, takeaway because I finished late and it was bought already for me. Not a good day, but I’ve been way too harsh on myself lately that I think I needed to let up for today. I drove around at 5am this morning and watched the sun rise sat on my car bonnet, I watched it glittering through the trees and it was so beautiful that I forgot about everything for a few minutes and just watched. I realised that life is too short and I don’t want to feel like that again. I don’t want to ever feel so worthless, disgusting and unattractive- even if just to myself. I’m going to keep building myself up, even if I’ve taken a knock to myself lately.
Sorry if you’ve only started following me and see TW, this doesn’t happen often I swear.
Does this ever happen to you guys?
dedication-motivation-obsession:
Like, I’ll be looking at the before/after pictures and I will always be like “omg that’s MY body” at the before picture and then see that they are like significantly over what you weight so there isn’t a way that their bodies look like yours?
It’s like my head is still stuck that I look the way I did when I weighed 24 more pounds. I’m getting use to this new and hopefully improving body, but it’s still a really slow process to get my head to stop thinking that I’m fat.
Which, I mean, doesn’t happen as much as it use to. But, I still have just a distorted body image of myself I guess. I constantly find myself thinking that I’m fat or just feeling fat even though I know I’m not. I’ll look into the mirror and think that I look even though I know that I’m not. I know that I’m not fat. I just wish I believed it.
YES. All of the time I would look at a picture of a girl on here and see myself, how much more did they weigh? 100lbs. I still feel like there’s not a huge amount of difference in my body. Now I try to feel more confident in my body, I realise that things look different or are more toned etc. It is taking it’s time but my body image is slowly changing for the better.
